Friday, May 30, 2008

kak long n adik

kak long n adik

eating icecream..pjuk die lps nangis..




da tallest one is adik..kak long pendek..





mak usu,mak ushu,mak uchu,mak cu.....it's me.





4 nephews n 5 nieces..lot erh..

dey called me as above..

but the closer one are nurul(kak long) n alif(adik)..

mak yg jge dorang dr lahir lg..

n now i've 2 become babysitter 2 both of dem replacing mum..

dorang ni ade lg sorang adik..da newborn..

but send 2 my neiber 2 luk after him..




kak long n adik sgt degil..ade org kate sedegil mak usu die..ngee

cbe u'all imagine if u talk 2 sumone but dey ignore u..

like talking to da wall..

mcm tula klu ckp ngan dorang..

owayz shouting here n der..klu mrh dorang mkn menjerit..

mne la mak i tak kne hypertension..




but,dey're da lovely cucu in our family compared 2 others..

eb-body love them..klu stakat brg mainan,baju,n so on..jgn ckp la..

tiap2 mnggu dorang dpt from thier aunties n uncle..

sumtimes i'm a bit jelez of dem cuz dey stole da limelight..upss

dlu i yg dmanjakan even asik kne mrh je ngan bro n sis..

n now dorang plak..




kak long ni ske menyanyi

if u all listen 2 her voice..so lovely..

her voice is very uniq..halus je..

klu die nyanyi ngan mimik muke skali die wat..klh plajar af6..

klu time high pitching 2,smpai kuar urat mke die..





adik plak suke begendang..

die slalu amik tin biskut n gendeng smbil geleng kpala..mcm keling..

tp ble adik gendang, ade rythym yg tesindiri..





both of dem has a very small body..

eb-body dun believe if i said their true age..

dey always be infront if q-up at scull..






abv are sum pics taken dis morning..

not so gud quality cuz gne camera hset je..

nak beli camera mcm saiful nang but tak mampu..waaa#$%^&




lagu rama rama nyanyian adik n kak long:


video

Sunday, May 25, 2008

ten-siyon..

i hate my sis(juwa) so muccchhh...



tensiyon..tension..tensen..eeee..arrgggghhh...ngeeeee...!!!#%^&*(

aku da bape mnggu tak kuar shopping..

1 week..2 weeks......3 weeks i guess..

ni sume akak aku pnye psl..

die keje kat cs(shopping complex kat jb) as..dunno la..

den of kosz la ebday dpt g shopping,walk around in the city..

pastu weekend ni pun die nak mrayap lg..

yesterday(saturday) die kuar ngan bf die..

bwk ns n lauk dr umah..

mkn sme2 la tu..gelinyek..

knonnye die yg msak..

da truth, i'm da one who provide ol da recipes..useless..

da tua bangka tak pndai msk..shame on u sis..

n now 2day(sunday) die kuar lg,ade memba kawin la knonye..

n now i hv 2 tk care my mum as usual..

n now i'm suffocate becoz cannot see da world out there..cit..

mak mcm bese la ckp..sabo la na,jge la mak ni..dpt phala tau..

yeah,i know..

n if my sis don't reach home b4 maghrib..

psr mlm pun i tak dpt g..



to juwa;

ko balik lmbt siap ko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, May 16, 2008

poem




sahabat, cinta dan sayang



sahabat...

dari perkataan sahabat,

beribu maksud boleh dirungkai

pelbagai kata mereka ertikan

banyak bicara jika disoalkan



cinta...

dari rasa cinta,

kita leka dibuai oleh perasaan

sehingga keliru tentang sebuah perhubungan

kadangkala terluka mengetahui kebenaran


sayang...

dari perkataan itu,

terungkai la perasaan seseorang

berertilah sebuah perhubungan

tiada lagi luka yang mendalam

betul ke???



bila kita da suka seseorang,

tak semestinya kita syg dia..

bila kita da syg seseorang,

tak semestinya itu cinta kita..

bila kita cinta seseorang,

tak semestinya itu jodoh kita..

bila itu jodoh kita,

tak semestinya kita bahagia...



semakin aku ubati hati terluka

semakin parah aku rasa

semakin aku cuba lupakan si dia

semakin hampir dgnnya

ada pernah org kata itu namanya cinta

aku tak nak percaya

aku takkan percaya..


sebab itu aku cuba yakinkan diri

utk tidak berharap benda yang tak pasti

aku cuba memahami situasi

supaya aku tdk dikuasai pelbagai emosi

aku cuba mengawal diri

utk menguatkan lg ketabahan hati

kerna aku tahu jodoh aku ditentukan qada' dan qadar dr Illahi...








Wednesday, May 14, 2008

hepy belated mother's day...


hepy mother's day i wish 2 my mum..(belated..ngee)..my sis buy us 3 set of my fav dish-piza hut..she spent rm143.50 to buy piza..celebrating mother's day..mak da la takleh mkn piza..tak ke bengong tu..but dun worry i can finish it..haha..

actually i'm dem bored..kat upm i used 2 hang out wt y frens o wt 'oppa' when i getting bored,stress,hepy,nothin' 2 do..easy to say i hang out n go shopping whenever i like..ol da time..ngadakan??..buat abis duit jpa je..ngee..n now i hv 2 stay at home taking care of mum..i'm not whine but dis boredom is really need 2 overcome..da one way is i read novel when free..n now i am reading 'daddy's girls' by Tasmina Perry..da story is quite boring..but i hv 2 finish it becoz i'm in da middle of the story's climax..bored..bored..bored..

2 my frenz especially dila; thanx 4 owayz supporting me when i'm in depressed..n 2 my 'oppa' thank u very much 4 ur loyalty listening when i confided my troubles evry nite be4 go to bed..actually i'm not kind of person dat like 2 share my sadness wt my frenz..i owayz kept it alone..even i'm feeling lonesome but i think dis is my way..so sorry when i'm not replying ur msg..dis sound like i'm nasty but i dun want to troublesome my fren..i'm not adept 2 show my feeling wt them..i juz bare my story on dis blog..n now i want 2 keep myself 'alone n alone'..

Monday, May 5, 2008

tears

dear blog,

2day i feel a bit free..fre from worrying..mak da bole becakap bnyak..she can nagging as usual..but mak ttp mengeluh kesakitan..

as i told previously,my mum sick..diabetes,high blood press,fever,vomitting...ol kind of sickness she got..n recently mata die skt,juz da left eye..takleh bukak..rse mcm ditarik dipusing di terbalikkan biji mata tu..pastu trus masuk hospital after 2nd day i reached home,saturday..eb-body is working so i yg temankan mak 24hr kat hspital..at that time mak tak lrt nak becakap,dun hv appetite 2 eating even sesuap nasi..so doc msukkan 'air'-NaOH 0.9 M..4 bottles in 2 days..after 2 days doc said mak can go back becoz her diabetes is undercontrol..but da prob is mata die tak baik2 gak..so depends on specialist eye doc to treat mum..luckily mak tak kene thn wad mata..

mse kat klinik mata,me n mum hv so many obstacles to face to..mse tu aku benci sgt kat org india..doc mata yg treat mak tu org keling..muke tak senyum pun..tu takpe la,tp buat mak aku mcm org sht je nak gerak sane gerak sni..we hv 2 wait omost 1-2hr..tu pun takleh jmpe doc lg..kene masuk blik sne sni wat test mata la knonnye..da la blik smpit pastu pintu kecik..pastu kene msuk dlm 4-5 blik..mak da mcm nak tejatuh..mak pkai wheelcahir..so it's quite difficult to pull her in n out to the small room..mse tu mak very bad mood..asal i tolak wheelcahir tu laju skt mak da mrh..pusing2 skt mak mrh..wlaupun i tak langgar org mak mrh n kata i tak hati2..watever,patience is the most important thin' in dis moment..mse tu i sorang,bro n sis not coming yet..doc keling tu skt pun tak bantu..bad mood spanjang mse..mcm taknak treat mak je..nak je i call my bro anta g hospital pakar..b4 dis mak da slalu msuk hspital pakar..dis time mak tak nak msuk lg sbb mak ksian kat my bro n sis abis duit beribu-ribu..but they dun mind as long mum get full n nice treatment..tp mse tu mak kata sabo je..mngkin die pnt..i said ok even my heart didn't..pastu da cek sne sni we hv 2 wait another 1-2 hr to see doc keling puaka tu..mse i tunggu ade org keling puaka lg satu buat hal ngan i..ade ke ptt die nak lalu jln tu tp smpit sbb ade wheelchair mak..mse tu mak tenga ddk kat wheelchair tu n tenga thn kesakitan..pastu die angkat n hempas wheelcahir tu mcm tu je..my mum shocked la..kongja pnye keling..pe lg i trus bgn nak sepak kpala die..mse tu i pndang die ngan pnuh mrh..pastu mak pndang i n bg isyarat "don't"..tau plak keling puaka tu kecut..pastu die cpt bla..i hate them so muchhhhh!!! go here n there,at last jmpe doc keling tu n die ckp kene wat laser mata..we hv 2 wait again n again utk tunggu turn wat laser..skali laser 30min but at dat time so many patient there..pastu mak ckp die taknak tnggu lg..tak thn..i ckp ngn doc mak da tak thn nak tgu so we hv 2 do it next time..

lps da wat laser mata, we go back..balik je umah i take shower spuas-puasnye becoz i tak mnd dr pg smpai ke mlm at dat day..dat nite mak asik mengerang kesakitan..mak asik nangis je..mak mmg sensitif..terlalu sensitif..i'm not strong enaf tu see mum's tear..my tears come out..my bro n sis tears come out..we ol tearing..mak ckp die slalu mmpi bkn2..she saw my late father in her dreams..bile mak cite kat kitorang die akan nangis..easy 2 say,al da time mak menangis..the oldest sis pun asik dpt mmp bruk..lately mak asik ckp ngan i jgn g jauh2..jgn tnggalkan mak sorang2..slalu doakan mak..i owayz did mum..owayz..tak kire mak sht o skt..i owayz ask 2 God, pnjangkan umo mak n shtkan mak sehingga ke akhir hayat mak..

da day of 2morrow mak nak berubat kg plak..mum's eye getting worsen..mak kata skt sgt..ape yg slalu kitorang ckp..sabar mak,dugaan ni skjap je..doc kate sbb kncing mns mak infect ke mata,dats y mata mak skt..urat mata bengkak n mata mak da juling skt..we bring her to pontian 4 alternatif..n yesterday is da 2nd time mak g berubat kg..n today mak da ade slera mkn..kncing mns die undercontrol..juz her eyes..i really feel relief to see mum can eat n feeling better..but she said mata die makin takleh bukak skang ni,tp mata kiri je la..b4 dis,mata kiri mak mmg tetutup sbb skt tp bole bukak dgn sndirinye,tp td mak ngadu her eyes getting worsen,tak bole bukak..as usual mak nangis lg..b4 go to bed,i owayz think wat happen to me if mum left me..b4 i tetido i'll close my face wt pillow n nangis sepuas2nye..dats the rite time 2 me 2 relieve my 'pain'..

plz guys,i beg u ol to pray 4 my mum's health..may Allah blessing u..